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Unexpected
I left for England hoping to discover new things about myself. I wanted to be stronger. Facing all these fears, and leaving on my own gave me a lot of confidence. However, once there, I realized that the motivations behind this trip didn't hold up anymore. What I had back home was way more precious than that country I wanted to discover. By leaving like this, I got to experience what it is like to be in a new environment sourrounded by new people. It's scary. However, once the fear settles down, it is possible to enjoy the experience. However, by leaving I discovered how the changes that occured in my life during the past 6 months have changed me. I felt like this trip was not what I was supposed to do at this point in my life. I decided to come home after an amazing week of new acquaintances, new discoveries and new adventures. I got to visit Herstmonceux Castle, Alfriston, Brighton, Eastbourne and London. I had a great time and am very excited to be back. It's funny, I expected to discover a lot about myself by leaving like this, but I didn't expect to come to this realization. I am very happy that everything turned out the way it did. No regrets at all.
To celebrate this new chapter in my life, I created a new layout (I was long overdue). It is inspired by the song by a new Canadian band called Mobile. I feel that the random thoughts I post here are very "out of my head". :) I absolutely adored the 50's clipart that I also chose to include. I also added a counter... the other one disapeared sometime last year as I was changing layouts.  Thanks Kass and Jac for the kind words. Your encouragement means a lot.
Pants and Trips
I've been dreaming of visiting Europe for many years. I've been thinking about my trip to England since October. I can't believe it's here. I'm leaving on Thursday. It seems so soon. Well, I shouldn't say that. The feeling you get (a mix of excitement and fear) before you leave for a trip, usually the day or week before, has been with me for the last month. So, in a way, it's about time June 15 got here.
I'm spending as much time as possible with my family and boyfriend. I won't see them for 33 days, so it seems reasonable to do so. I watched "Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants" last week. I also bought the first 2 books (planning on buying the 3rd when it comes out on paperback tomorrow). I'll read them on the plane and during my stay in England, if I have time. I also got a tour guide book of England, which got me excited. I looked up things I would like to see during my free time. I'll look at it more on the plane or during my first days in England. Getting British money (aka. pounds) made the voyage seem more real. Their money looks pretty. :) I was actually surprised at the resemblence to Canadian money (we also have the Queen on our money); however, the bills are different sizes depending on the amount, which I find original and practical. I'm mostly relaxing before my departure. I still have a couple of things to buy (power converter, curling iron, pocket mirror) before thursday. I'll start packing on Wednesday. My flight is at 10h40 Thursday night. This is probably my last post before my trip. I might post while I'm in England. If not, I'll give all of you an update (and hopefully with photos) of my trip once I get back on July 19. Merci/Thanks Jac & Kass. Have a nice month.
Le voyage approche...
Fears change, or at least they move around. I am overcome with all sorts of emotions as my departure date approaches. I'm excited, but scared. I'm happy, but sad. I want to go, I want to stay. But overall, I remember at heart why I decided to leave and I feel great. I realized that these pre-departure jitters are normal. Everything is coming in order, with paperwork and bank/money matters. I really have just a few stops to make and few things to buy, and then I'm ready. So I'll be able to spend the next 13 days relaxing and not thinking so much a bout my trip, but enjoy these last few days with my boyfriend, friends and family.
I received my first eBay purchase through the mail today: Sam Phillips "The Indescribable Wow" (1988). This CD is out of print. I've wanted it almost since I discovered Sam Phillips, through Gilmore Girls, in 2000. I decided to take a chance and give eBay... I got successfull results. Excellent CD,a nd I got it cheap. Merci Kass pour m'avoir suggéré ces films. J'ai le film "Chasing Liberty", et je planifie regarder "Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants" avant mon départ. Ton commentaire m'a également vraiment rassuré. J'aime bien... Et même si la peur ou la "nostalgie" te prends, souviens-toi que lorsque tu reviendras, rien n'aura changé...Tous tes amis et ta famille vont t'attendre pour que tu leur racontes les moments merveilleux que tu auras passé. Also thanks to Lynn and Jazzy for the reassuring words. Lynn, I watched "Princess Diaries" (that I own also) after I read your comment. From that movie I also like the quote "Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear." I really want to create a new layout for my blog, but the moment I get inspired, things never seem to work. I actually wasted a couple of hours yesterday trying to come up with something, playing with photos and designs. No luck. Maybe once I'll come back from my trip I'll be more inspired. Archives:
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